Good Bye 2008, Hello 2009

Thinking back on 2008, I have a lot of memories....good and bad. Look out, cuz I'm gonna share them with you.

I brought in 2008 at my good friend MB's house, with some friends from the mom's group. It was fun. Wish I was doing that again this year!

Maddi turned 6 in February. She had a Libby Lu party. Steve and I became addicted to Komets Hockey.

A friend and I kidnapped our friend MB for a night of laser tag and dinner at IHOP for her birthday in March. Boy was she shocked when I pulled out the blindfold and hand cuffs! March also brought about a bad time with my mom and sister. I didn't speak to either of them until sometime during the summer.

Cassi hit the big 1-4 in April. It's hard to believe that I have a kid that old! It makes me wonder where all the time has gone. I lost my Aunt Kaye this month too. She was a fabulous person. Cassi got Kaye's red hair. My best friend Jennie had her second child, Makayla Marie on April 14th.

I hit a really rough patch in May. I still can't talk about a lot of it. It led to some of the drama that spilled over into June.

June brought about a devastating time for me. I lost a great friend during that time. Luckily, we have since made amends and our friendship is continuing to grow (I think). I let Cassi have some freedom begining with June, too. She went to Kentucky for almost the whole summer.

We moved into Katrina's house on July 15th. It was a blessing. We needed to get out of the other house and there wasn't anything decent for rent. Falling into this house was awesome!

Ahhh....August! We really pulled one over on Cassi... she didn't know we moved! We picked her up in Michigan and drove her to the new house. She was ecstatic! Steve turned 31. I missed going home to Chelsea for the fair. School started (I now have a FRESHMAN!) Steve started his new job at AquaTech.

I find out that my mom has Lung Cancer in September. I'm barely holding things together, but my friends and hubby-guy are there to support me. Mom makes it thru her surgeries with some difficulty, but is alive. I lost 2 people who I thought were like family to me. I can forgive you for lots of things, but I can only do it so many times. I reached my limit when they did me wrong while my mom was fighting for her life.

After 31 days in the hospital, with many ups and downs, my mom is finally cleared to go home on October 29th. Gabbi and Maddi are doing great in school according to report cards and conferences. Cassi too, although I get weekly reports with her, not just 9 week reports. Steve and I celebrated our 7 year anniversary. I love him now even more than I did then! Steve and I smoked our last cigarette. (at least to this date)

Hmmm....I can handle turning 34 this November, it's turning 35 next November that I'm worried about! Thanksgiving was good. We ate with his parents at their house.

And that brings me to December. Gabbi turned 9. The DeRose's Family Christmas Party was fun...I won the door prize. :) We had a great Christmas.

I guess that's the recap for this year. There were lots of ups and downs, twists and turns. I can only hope and pray that 2009 will bring even better things for my friends and family. God Bless Us All!

"Friends"

This was originally going to be about what the year 2008 had been like, but my day went so far downhill that I'm going to complain about that instead. Bear with me...

I'm so tired of so called friends and they way they treat me. I'm tired of all the crap that comes my way. I'm tired of lending a helping hand and then being crapped on for doing it. I'm tired of being used and abused.

I truly don't think that I ask for much from a friendship. I want honesty and respect. I think those are really the foundations to any relationship that you have. If you can't be honest, there is no trust. If there is no respect, there is no honor. Come on...how much am I really asking of these "friends" of mine? Do any of you expect or accept less than that from your own friends? I highly doubt it. I just want friends that like/love me for who I am, not what I can give them or do for them.

I do have a few good friends that treat me the way I deserve to be treated, and I know that they know who they are. They have become very important to me. I lost one of them for a while, but we have mended our fences now. I'm extremely blessed to have her back in my life. I hope that our friendship will continue to grow.

It's A "T" Thing

What I like to say is "I don't have 'one of those days', I have one of those lives."

Things are falling apart around here. Normally I wouldn't put it out there for public eyes, but I'm really feeling down and don't really care who sees it. I am so misunderstood by my family and friends. I'm so stressed out that I don't know how much longer I can take it. I've been keeping it inside of me for so long...and it's all about to come to an explosion. I can't find the words to express everything I'm feeling. I know that times are tough for a lot of people right now, but I don't have to worry about them...I have to worry about me and my family. However, every time I try to take care of my own, the very people who claim to care about me get mad at me for doing what I think I need to do! I'm tired of skimping when it comes to groceries....how many times do I have to look at my kids and say "I'm sorry....we have nothing for snack today"!! I'm tired of wondering what kind of half baked concoction we're gonna have for dinner. I've been trying to find a job...that's not going too well. I did start baby sitting, but that only pays $50 a week. We're so far behind that it doesn't even make a difference. I'm trying to share the load with my husband and he just doesn't seem to get it. I ask for him to make one phone call and he can't even do that. Last weekend I ended up sick with a migraine because I couldn't handle the stress anymore. Why can't he be there and help me out? What is it with him? Does he just not care or what? I'm losing what little bit of sanity I have and he blows me off. I'm extremely angry with him right now. What do you think he's doing right now? He's puttering around as though nothing is wrong, getting himself ready for bed. What am I doing? Sitting here typing up a storm and crying my eyes out. It's absurd!

This Is Me

I am a 30-something wife and mom of 3 girls, ages 14, 9 and almost 7.

Reading and writing are 2 of my favorite things.

I love to spend time with my family and friends.

I decided to try out Blogger cuz I love to blog, but myspace is a little too public for some of the things I have to say.