I'm not too sure how many more times I can take being labeled a failure.... I'm tired of feeling like I have to take care of everyone and everything, and when something doesn't meet someone else's standards, I'm a failure. This feeling inside me right now has me so damned upset, frustrated and furious! I just want to explode!
On top of that mess, my 2 younger kiddos just got home from Michigan and are sick; stuffy noses, sore throats, slight fevers and nasty, make-you-wanna-gag-til-you-vomit coughs. I have only seen them for about an hour or so....and I had to feed them, dose them up, hug them and send them to bed. They look so pitiful! I could seriously just get in my van and make a road trip! They come home like this almost every time they go up there! I'm sure the question of why do I still let them go is on the tip of your tongue....well, my mom has cancer....I"m always afraid that each trip up there might be the last time they get to see her. I don't want them to miss out on one last chance to spend some time with their granny before she loses her battle with this horrid disease!
That's all I got for now....I seriously need to just go to bed with a big bottle of Nyquil....
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3 comments:
I can't say this enough, but you are an amazing person! I understand how you feel and prob. would feel the same way. I think I have been labeled as a failure in more ways than one. It is hard making the decision knowing your mom is sick. Hang in there and hope your kiddos feel better soon. Luv ya girl! If there is anything you need, just let me know...
Tonya - First off... you are not a failure... you have a loving husband, and beautiful girls... how can that be a failure.
Second... haveing just lost grandma to cancer, I understand the need to have the girls spend time with their grandma. I'm sorry about your mom.
Thanks ladies....it's been a rough few weeks :)
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